Big Daddy

BASED ON ACTUAL EVENTS

As is the case with most hard drug users, you start off small and end up making your way up. Since I was 15 I had been smoking weed. One of my friends had introduced me to some other drugs like meth or coke a few years later. The weed was still a big influence but it all seemed so tempting. It was a different high and on a much higher level. I figured I could do it and just stop if I wanted to, which of course did not work. I'd learn to accept that. As time went on I began not to care because it felt too good to stop. All my problems seemed to go away when I was away on another plain.

Stacy, my girlfriend of two years, only smoked weed but knew that I did harder drugs. She never really asked for details and we always enjoyed our sex while high. It wasn't that we were performing better but the drugs gave that illusion. It became apparent that I also enjoyed crossdressing and it didn't bother her at all. I'd never do it around her because it wasn't her thing but it was something she didn't mind me doing.

Last year I lost my job and it was hard for us to afford all of our bills, let alone my habit. I'd scrape up change, pick up cans off the streets, just to get enough money to get me away from my worries.

I've always been a very sexual being and when Stacy was gone, I found myself looking at shemale porn on the internet. The thought of me sucking a man while dressed as a female really turned me on, but I had never done it. As it became obvious that I wouldn't be able to afford my drugs as much, I started thinking that maybe now was the time to explore that other side.

The withdrawals were hard to deal with and desperation sank in. I was willing to do anything for just a little cocaine.

I got online one day when my girlfriend was at work and went into a local chat room. I'd chat with different people but if they didn't have what I wanted, I stopped immediately. Luckily, there was a guy who was just 20 minutes from me who could get me some coke. His name was George and he was a cab driver. Maybe not the brightest idea, I gave him my address and he'd be over in a few hours.